September 2010
“Yesterday our troubles seemed so far away. I believe in yesterday.”
-The Beatles
its funny how we ultimately lose everything we’ve ever gained. everything we’ve ever loved. its happened to me, and i’m sure its happened to all of you. i’ll be the first to admit that i’m not the same person i was a year ago. i’m one of those people you do change, but that doesn’t mean my feelings towards you do too. i know that no matter what happens, you’ll always love me. you’ll always care for me and be there for me. i’m just wondering why that can’t be enough? why that the fact that i’m changing for the good makes you feel different towards me. i know you are my sun, but make things bright again, because the darkness is taking over. just think about this. i will always love you. no matter what. remember that.
You might be thinking, ‘when he looks at me, i bet you he doesn’t feel a thing.’But.. do any of us really know that? He could be looking at you and wishing you two didn’t mess things up.He could still care about you, you just don’t want to believe it because the way he acts around you. Ignoring you, not looking you in the eye.. Maybe he is really the one who would want you in his life, maybe not as much, but it’s better than nothing at all, right?
Because even though she can’t say his name anymore, and just because she never talks about him, doesn’t mean he isn’t always on her mind. And even though he’s not here anymore, doesn’t change the fact that he’s still locked up in her heart. And even though it’s been all this time, he’s still managing to tear her apart.
I think about you all day, everyday. Your smile, the way you sound and the way you say my name replays in my head constantly. As these thoughts run through my head, i can feel my heart bursting through my chest. Sometimes, the thought of you is what keeps me going. The thing that makes my heart ache the most is when i snap back into reality and remember that you will never love me like i love you.
we put up with so much in hopes of you turning into a perfect guy. to all you girls out there on tumblr writing and dreaming about that perfect guy, stop it. none of them are perfect. but if you find a guy with all of these, you are one lucky girl, so hold onto him, and never let him go.
1. holds your hand in front of his friends
2. opens the door for you
3. holds your books in the hallways.
4. kisses you like nobody is watching
5. sings to all of your favorite songs.
6. watches chick flicks with you
7. surprises you with i love you texts in the middle of the day.
8. doesn’t call you late at night when you want to sleep, but knows to call when something is troubling you.
9. is polite to your parents
10. can have fun with your siblings
11. wakes you up with a text reading good morning sunshine.
12. cares about your feelings
13. isn’t afraid to express his
14. massages your back after a long day at practice
15. will spend his friday and saturday nights with you, instead of going out with the boys
16. looks you in the eye when he’s talking
17. gives you space
18. understand that you have friends, too.
19. plays with your hair
20. holds your hand, or places his hand on your leg, under the table
21. plays footsies with you under the table
22. takes you somewhere nice to eat.
23. can understand what you’re thinking just by looking at you
24. can make you smile, even when the clouds are grey.
25. loves you with all his heart, and doesn’t care what other people think about it.
“In every girl’s life there will always be that one guy; he’s the one who hurt you a countless amount of times, he probably caused you the most pain in your life, and he probably treated you the worst out of all the guys yet he’s the one you will fall the hardest for because with those bad times, and with the pain, he will then treat you the best and will always keep you coming back for more regardless of the pain he ever caused in the first place.”
“Everything turns out to be okay in the end, if it’s not okay, it’s not the end.”
“Sooner or later, you start taking yourself seriously. You know when you need a break. You know when you need a rest. You know what to get worked up about and what to get rid of. And you know when it’s time to take care of yourself, for yourself. To do something that makes you stronger, faster, more complete. Because you know it’s never too late to have a life. And never too late to change one.”
Just saw someone anonymous post this on someone’s tumblr-
“You are beautiful. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. Whatever is going on in your life, good or bad, its there for a reason so make the best out of it. God will help you through your stuggles and you are strong enough to face whatever is going on in your life. No matter what’s going on, remember someone is smiling for you, they want the best for you, and even if you don’t know them face-to-face, they are sending good thoughts your way and praying for good things to come in your life.”
We need more people like this.
there are a few…
“When I was a little girl I used to read fairy tales. In fairy tales you meet Prince Charming and he’s everything you ever wanted. In fairy tales the bad guy is very easy to spot. The bad guy is always wearing a black cape so you always know who he is. Then you grow up and you realize that Prince Charming is not as easy to find as you thought. You realize the bad guy is not wearing a black cape and he’s not easy to spot; he’s really funny, and he makes you laugh, and he has perfect hair.”
— Taylor Swift
“To me, Fearless is not the absense of fear. It’s not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me,Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death.”
— Taylor Swift
“I suffer from girlnextdooritis where the guy is friends with you and that’s it.”
— Taylor Swift
have you ever had the feeling where you just want to go. it doesn’t matter where. it doesn’t matter who with. just to go. just to drive along the coast with your hair blown back and the music up loud. to sing at the top of your lungs and eat icecream all day. to stop at random monuments and lakes and trees, and take pictures like there is no tomorrow. to think about nothing at all, and to have all your worries melt away. to be yourself, when nobody is there to judge, stare, or criticize. only in my dreams…
today, i walked through the locker room to my gym locker. sitting on the bench, i saw what looked like a brand new notebook. having no name on the cover, i did what i knew was wrong, i opened the notebook. in a single inscription wrote
“I have to meet the judge and talk with my lawyer today. I’m fuckin’ scared for my life.”
there were no other writings. after i read those two lines, my life took a whole new toll on me. so what. who cares if i have a sprained ankle? who cares that i’m done with gymnastics. the answer is nobody. nobody cares enough. but i am proving that wrong. whoever wrote that obviously needs to be cared. someone needs to love her, and everyone needs to care. she’s going through a tough time. so who cares if you got grounded, or if you don’t have the right water bottle for practice. other people are worse off. lets start caring.